ELEVEN THOUSAND, SIX HUNDRED EIGHTY SIX
Sounds like a life time, that many days, but it’s not.
It’s 32 years plus six days.
Thirty-two years of marriage, plus the 6 days after the last celebration.
11,686 days of all kinds of emotions and feelings.
Rudy and I have stood toe-to-toe, face-to-face, arms wrapped around each other.
And endured difficult moments, standing heel-to-heel, back-to-back, arms rigid, avoiding contact.
ELEVEN THOUSAND, SIX HUNDRED EIGHTY SIX
32 years plus 6 days of a committed relationship, solidified through loyalty, love, and friendship.
nothing like a good ‘ol evening stroll through the neighborhood, breathing in the cool evening air, and chatting with my mate.
yes, my mate.
who never ever, ever (well, except that one time…) walks with me.
i didn’t even ask. just said i was putting on my Nikes. and that i’d be back in a bit. said it as i was jamming my foot into a shoe.
“i’ll go with you,” he said.
‘say what?! yes!’ i secretly cheered.
“oh, sure,” I said aloud. trying to sound like it was no big deal.
but, a big deal it was. it was relationship worthy.
me. rudy. and a conversation. about nothing in particular. the kind of nothing that means everything.
The new year began this morning, for me, at 6:30 am. Not at midnight when the fireworks began, throughout the world. I slept through the festivities and the salmon tacos Rudy had prepped for the two of us to devour at the ticking hour. Instead, feeling overwhelmingly fatigued, I snoozed. Slept right through the eve and wee hours of 2018.
New Year’s Resolutions don’t suit me. Not really. I mean I do think of things I want to accomplish, another chance for a do-over but, what I really want to do is resolve, or better yet, continue, the things that I know put a positive spin on my well-being.
I need to take the time to revisit myself, to return to the parts of me I like the most.
The person who finds peace within while remembering what is good in life; thereby, approaching daily moments in positive, nonjudgemental ways.
Such simple lifestyle choices, yet so easy to forget.
I resolve to remember. To be healthy in mind, body, and soul. Happy New Year, 2018.
So, this past summer I did quite a bit of home improving, choosing to challenge myself with various projects rather than paying a professional to fix what needed fixing. Of all the projects – painting, landscaping, creating a minimalistic vibe (except for my new office space which is packed with my life, packed with everything important to me– it was the interior door(s) that gave me the most trouble.
Interior doors, I thought would be the easiest project to tackle. In my mind, after researching ways to replace the doors I discovered the “Pre-hung Door”, which arrives in its frame, the hinges and the door handle (hole) already in place. All I had to do was set it into the opening, the spot in which I planned to replace the door. Easy, peasy. Right?
I ordered one door. For my ensuite bathroom. A test I had given myself. Could I do it? Actually replace an interior door? Why not? I asked myself. You’re self-sufficient. Hanging a door, regardless of the fact you’ve never done it, should be a no-brainer. Right?
The door arrived wrapped in plastic. And, yes, without knowledge about what I was going to suffer through, I was excited.
… here’s the kicker, though… I thought the frame around the door was simply protecting it while traveling to my destination, to my home. So. What did I do? I unhinged the frame and tossed it.
Literally. Threw. It. Away.
Then I “tried” to put the new door into the door opening, only to discover it didn’t fit.
I. Was. Confused. Frustrated. Didn’t understand.
Light cussing. Bad words. Sprang into the air.
Believe me when I say I went through quite a bit of turmoil trying to figure out where I went wrong. Even after watching video after video and reading information, nothing quite explained my problem. Until it dawned on me, several weeks later, that I had thrown out, not a protector piece, but an essential part of the door.
So, I leaned that door up against the wall in my room and I ordered another door (seriously, I didn’t want to build a new frame around the door. No way!).
I bought two doors, actually. I figured, I got it. I CAN do it, now. All I had to do was measure the original doors, side to side, top to bottom, choose solid or hollow ( I went with hollow – cheaper and lighter weight ) order them online, and wait for them to arrive.
Arrive they did. A month later. Two doors. One for the bathroom. One for a bedroom.
Yet, my confusion simply deepened. I now understood I had to keep the frame, but Why the heck wasn’t it fitting into the opening where the new door was projected to thrive? And then, again, it dawned on me. I had to take out the original framework before installing the new pre-hung frame.
During this second round, I decided to first replace the bedroom door – a more urgent necessity – so I began ripping out the heavy-wooded frame, making a mess in the hallway. I then proceeded to “test” the pre-hung door, placing it into the now (wide-open) opening, happy that it fit.
Yes! Now I’m onto something, I told myself, patting my back.
Until I realize that the frame (around) the new door didn’t extend to the width of the original frame (built with the house). Meaning, There is (not was, is) plaster board exposure inside the bedroom due to an inch difference in frame sizes. Plus, I had to chop off part of the bottom of the door to avoid it from scrapping (which is par for the course). What I didn’t think about, though, was that by cutting off an inch I cut the entire solid portion (sort of a sealant within the otherwise hollow door), exposing its inside, which means if a spider happens to wander underneath, it would find a prime spot to lay its eggs.
Aside from all my mistakes, the door is in. Not perfectly. And surrounded by crude, unfinished work. But for now I am done. And I will admit that the unfinished work does not bother me. I, for some odd reason, like the reminder of how hard working I can be.
But, at the moment, I am over replacing doors.
Over it, until next summer, that is.
In the end, the bathroom door will remain leaning against the living room wall, outside of its frame. And it will remain there. As will the one in my bedroom. Both are now part of my interior design, which are actually my new, pleasing-to-the-eye conversational pieces. Ironically, they look like planned art.
Sometimes the planned takes a turn and the unplanned becomes the focal point.
long ago, probably about five, six, maybe seven, eight years ago brad announced he knew someone, or talked to them in passing, or something, and mentioned that the person had told him about a cute, little, itty-bitty, barely-born, newly-arrived kitten.
he wondered if he could have it.
i have forever been opposed to pets because kids tend to think all they have to do is pretty much nothing. just occasionally (operative word here) engage with their newly obtained hobby. goldfish died due to an overload of food. while on the other hand, hamsters starved to death.
for me, it was too much to handle. little kids running around asking mommy this, mommy that, mommy, mommy mommy, which caused me to forget there was a pet in the house. i had tunnel vision. hence, supervised kids. unsupervised critters.
which meant no more pets. no. never. not on my watch.
until brad showed me, and roberto (a huge pet advocate), an adorable photo of the kitten he had mentioned. he caught me off guard. sly kid. the kitten’s big green eyes and fluffy fur was hard to resist, for all of us, apparently. please, please, please they both whispered, hands clasped into steeples, prayer-mode.
ok, i said.
say what? what did i say? i asked myself.
really?! they both screamed.
really, i mumbled.
as they were walking out the front door, i said, bring home two. (again, what the heck was going on with me?)
two? you sure?
yeah, you know, to play together.
within the hour they brought home Cassandra and Skyler (named later that afternoon by the boys). fraternal twins. one black, one multicolored. both with green eyes.
i was smitten.
roberto recently moved out and brad is a busy 17 year old. both engaged elsewhere, most of the time. so, aside from brad allowing them to sleep in his room, the girls belong to me. i tend to them 99% of the time, and i even renamed them. (the kids don’t know this, they’d probably think i’ve gone bonkers, but oh well, a caretaker’s got to do what a caretaker’s got to do, right?)
cassandra’s now-name is chicka-chicka-boom-boom (which, ironically, is the title of an adorable kid’s book about the lower case letters of the alphabet climbing a tree, thinking they know what’s what) because of her diva personality and i refer to skyler as skitter. so sweet, yet so nervous. she has never been able to fully relax.
ah, there she is. I can hear chicka-chicka-boom-boom’s deep guttural mew call me. she wants in the house for a quick nibble of chow and a full-on vigorous back rub. she likes her cheeks gently caressed as well.
spoiled. i know.